June 14,
2006
Zarqawi's Report From Paradise
The first
thing I noticed when I got here was that there are hardly any virgins.
But you quickly discover that such matters are the least of your
concerns. How I got here is a much more interesting story, especially
since it will surely be the last interesting thing that ever happens to
me.
The last
thing I remember was looking up from the stretcher and seeing the
Americans.
Bastards.
These infidels prop up the Zionist regime for nearly 60 years, then they
take the liberty of trying to impose their godless culture on not one
but two Muslim nations. So they think they’ve accomplished something by
killing me? Who am I? My mode of killing was a machete to the neck.
Theirs is a smart bomb. You think there’s more honor in that?
I knew that
Nicholas Berg’s severed head in my hand would be all over the Internet
within hours. I wouldn’t have killed with such style if it hadn’t served
a purpose. You sever a head. You detonate a roadside bomb. And you make
sure the western media has the pictures within hours – minutes, if
possible. It’s must-see TV, and every time it happens, Americans at all
ends of the political spectrum start demanding that the troops come
home.
But it
didn’t happen fast enough for me.
I tried to
roll off the stretcher and get away from them. It’s not that I was
afraid to die. I just didn’t want to give them the satisfaction of
watching it. But it is what it is.
So the next
thing is that I’m standing in a white chamber and there’s a throne in
front of me. The man sitting on the throne is dressed in brilliant white
– gleaming white. It’s practically blinding me. I’m not sure
exactly what I should be expecting with respect to the details of
Paradise, so I wait to see what the man in the gleaming white is going
to say.
Point
blank, he asks me to give account for myself. That’s all he wants. I’m
pretty sure this is not Mohammed, and if it’s Allah, it’s not precisely
what I was expecting. But it didn’t seem like the time to demand he
identify himself. Besides, I was very confident about my answer. So I
spoke:
I lived my
life in service to God. I studied the Koran intensely, lived according
to Islamic law and was zealous in my opposition to evildoers. I devoted
my life not only to the proliferation of Islam, but also to its defense.
I paid a price for this with prison time in Jordan. I paid a price for
it by becoming a fugitive in Iraq. Ultimately, I paid for it with my
life, which has brought me here to you.
Wherever I
encountered the enemies of God, I did battle with them. When the
American infidels invaded our Iraqi brothers, I served as both the
spiritual and tactical leader of the opposition. These pigs, the
defenders of the Zionist entity, sought to bring their immoral culture
and system to this most holy of lands. I sacrificed everything to stop
them.
I come
before you now, having completed my life, as God’s dedicated servant,
confident of my reward.
He just
stared at me for a moment. What was he waiting for? The whole thing was
not unfolding the way I had expected – and believe me, I had thought
about it many times. Who was this? What was his authority? Where did it
come from?
But there
was no questioning it. You could tell just from looking at him that his
was the seat of judgment, and if I wanted a good outcome, it would have
to be pleasing to him. I was starting to wonder if I had made my case
effectively. Then I found out.
“Away from
me, you evildoer,” he said. “I never knew you.”
I wanted to
speak up and debate him, but just like that, he was gone. Or I was gone.
It seemed like I was falling – just falling for the longest time – but
not necessarily on a downward slope. Just freefalling in no particular
direction. Not up. Not down. Just away. Away from hope. Away from my
entire understanding of God, and of truth, and of everything I had ever
thought or done.
And then I
found myself here. I suppose the best way to describe this place is to
suggest that you think about every good thing that ever happens to you –
no matter how small. Every achievement. Every hopeful thought. Every
smile. Every friend. Every breath of air that you need to live. Every
inch of your body that doesn’t feel any pain.
Now imagine
you just realized that there was a single force providing all this to
you. Without the force, you have none of it. Now imagine you find
yourself cut off from the force. Forever. To say this is not what I’d
expected would be the understatement of all eternity.
I hate the
God who sent me here. I didn’t realize it until now, but I always hated
him. It would appear he finally decided he’d had enough of that – and of
me.
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